CIRCUSITCH

This isn’t how I planned things to be.
I was thinking of a nice and relaxed departure, instead of a mess of a person that I am right now. so many things to do, and I am running out of time.
I leave for UK at 0200 (in three hours time?) for a month of backpacking [...]

The last younger guy I had made me feel like a nerd. We connected through brash verbal exchange – he said, “I like strong women,” in his young, coming-of-age wisdom and physique – and I was just bored and angry.
I was sitting at the top of the stairs when he sauntered over, making faces [...]

I agree with the hulking metal chameleon that is Megatron. Actually, this is why I tend to be seduced by the dark forces. I believe evil outlasts everything, even good. I think with being evil comes pure concentration and focus, and determination to wipe them all out. You shake off whatever baggage you have, [...]

Things have been going on lately in this crazy busy hectic week.
1) Last Monday, I went for a swim, after AGES of not going. My close friend Sarr has become a serial climber, even went so far to Batu Caves to climb, and her continuous exercise was making me worry about my own lack [...]

somehow i was slow to realize the changes.
but they were changes nevertheless, relentless and neverending. Continuous. Persistent. alarm clock presence.
first it was the hair. then i notice the silence of my mobile phone. my patience and anger come next. sanity follows close. confidence was the hardest and the most obvious.
i started to love the [...]

Finally.
I am writing from an internet cafe in Kuta, Bali. We arrived Bali last night after a 15 hour journey from Mt. Bromo. That was insane. My butt hurts in areas I never thought existed.
In short, Jakarta was brief, Bandung was a city reminiscent of Melbourne street culture, with its distros and Paris [...]

I know the feeling of depending your whole life on someone and then to lose it. To know that I would have to do it all over again and have the possibility of losing it all over again as well, is, well, scary.
There are so many things I wish for right now. They are [...]