CIRCUSITCH

When I was 19, I thought 25 was an Adult. Like, that’s it, you’re officially someone who automatically knows how to do adult things, like figuring out your tax expenses, juggling your mortgage, cooking 10 meals easily and handling disappointments or making decisions in a calm and orderly manner.
Actually turning a year older is [...]

“Can you tell me can you tell can you tell
If there is something better
Cuz you know there always is
There always is…”
We’re too young to be in love, fuck that.
You’re my 12 year old bride.
Remember the rides in your brother’s Chevrolet. You handled the handbrake lovingly, like you handled me. You always ride shotgun – and [...]

Most of the times, I think most people are disappointing. I can say it here because I know I’ve disappointed a lot of other people too, so mutual views mean mutual disrespect. When I say people are disappointing, it means they don’t subscribe to the same school of thought that I do.
When I [...]

The doctor told me: I have only three years to live. Maybe less.
I felt cheesy, like a Hallmark tv movie. That was the only thing running through my mind, how cheesy isn’t funny when it is real.
I’d be dead when I turn 25.
On the way back I thought of my girlfriend, how she gets stressed [...]

Have you ever seen fish as big as your heartache? Found in the place where it always rains sadness, and thunderous rage controls the weather of your moods.
I’m wearing a pink sweater and it doesn’t even help the temperature.

It’s Friday, and Fridays are always good.
I keep a journal for a reason, and that reason is to reflect how things have changed and how far I’ve gone. I believe this entry down below is a good thing, a good reminder. This was written 3 years ago:
“I don’t know how often he is [...]

Once upon a time there was no one there in the woods. Everybody was at peace, and only four legged beasts roamed the space, leaves crunching underneath their footsteps. We all didn’t have issues, only birthday surprises. Our mistakes were forgotten; erased by a lingering touch, a deep gaze. Until someone went to a party [...]