CIRCUSITCH

Leaving again for the second time this year. For a 16 day trip scaling one of the peaks in the Himalayan region. Sounds gempak but it’s nothing like everest so chill out mak nenek.
See ya.

What can you forgive if you don’t want to forget?
There are a lot of things I don’t want to forget. I don’t want to forget crying my heart out into a pillow, when I was 13, 15, 17, 19, 21, 23 and now 25. I don’t want to forget gorging on ice-cream at [...]

sleep was scarce when it should be abundant. i reverted back to my university habit of diving under the covers listening to repeated songs. the night felt way cold – a chill that was never apparent before. It hugged every space on my skin. no one in this world quite knows the situation i am [...]

Any moment now I have to get busy packing and putting my stuff into boxes. I have to turn 22 years of comfort into labeled boxes. Maybe in one day.
This is it now. We are getting our asses out of here.
But I was thinking…
I was completely heartbroken for four years. Friends only [...]

I have a separate site where I put things like this up. But it’s just so cute and funny I can’t help but to share it with all of you. I love watching people in their period of deep sleep. My dream is to mesh my head with theirs and have our thoughts combined. [...]

Itulah kamu. Orang tak suruh puasa, nak jugak puasa.
Nobody woke you up for sahur. And yet you still rise, stretching your upper body and walking slowly into the kitchen. Terkebil-kebil duduk depan bowl tunggu food. Ok fine, we all said. Mungkin kucing ni super alim kot. Ye lah, layan Jejak Rasul every [...]

you used to read me poetry; pages of paper scattered between us with a box of chocolates as fuel.
after a beating from your dad, you’d come to me, your face hot where the skin was hurt, your heart swollen in sadness. The radio blared on and on singing jingles. The chocolate milk turned sour [...]